It’s been almost 2 years since I last posted on this Blog. Â A lot has happened to little old me since I was last here. Â So much that I couldn’t even begin to tell you all the details! But i’m back now, I’m back and things are going to be better than ever!
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In 2011 my beloved Dad passed away. Â I have written about this briefly before but for those of you who are new here he went in to hospital with a hernia and never came out again. Â He had an operation to fix the hernia but due to a combination of things (his age, asthma and Emphasyma) he suddenly passed away whilst in the ICU a couple of hours after he came out of theater. Â I felt like the bottom had fallen out of my world, My lovely, funny, clever Dad was gone. Â But I carried on, I still had my Mum to look after and i was in the process of buying a house with my partner at the time. Â I carried on as best i could and managed pretty well for about a year!
Then September 2012 happened. Â Things between me and my partner didn’t work out. Â I still don’t 100% know why but it hit me like a train. Â Suddenly I had lost my Dad and my boyfriend, my lovely house and even my cat Lupin. Â I had to move out of the house we shared and leave 10 years of our life together behind. Â I cried a lot, I wished things were different but I carried on as best I could!
I found a new place to live (a house share with 3 other lovely people) and i settled in. Â My wonderful freinds (RL and internet) rallied round and I was never left on my own for too long and they let me moan…and moan…….and mmmooaaaaannnn. Â Despite the sadness I had fun and realised I had good people in my life. Â I even met someone new…..
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Then in April 2013 my Mum got sick. Â She never told me how bad she was and I didn’t have any reason to think things were that bad. Â One day she collapsed in town and had to stay in hospital. Â She had all sorts of tests but she told me they were all ok. Â She came out of hospital and i tried to see her as much as I could. Â She had seemed to pick up but then one day i got a call. Â Mum really wasn’t ok. Â Eventually she had to go back in to hospital and it was then that I found out she had cancer and she wouldn’t be getting better. Â I don’t know to this day if she knew and just kept it from me or if she was in denial. It wasn’t long before she began to deteriorate. Â Eventually she couldn’t hang on anymore and then she was gone too. Â I cried and I cried. Â There were times when I felt like I had no one, that I was all alone. Â But once again my wonderful friends rallied round to help as best they could. Â My Auntie and uncle travelled from St Helen’s every day to help me with funeral arrangements and sorting through 30+ years of my mum and Dads life. Â It was difficult and upsetting and for a while i was very very down. Â It felt like there was a weight on top of me. But I carried on as best i could.
So it’s been almost a year since I lost my Mum and in July it will be 3 years since I lost my Dad.  I’ve sold their house and sorted all that stuff.  I’ve left my job that i’ve been in for 7 years in persuit of something different.  I’ve just come back from a lovely holiday in Barcelona with my new boyfriend and my friends and family are all still wonderful 🙂Â
I’m doing pretty good and things can only get better I hope!! So stick around, i’m planning on being here for a while!!!
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