The long and winding road.

It’s been almost 2 years since I last posted on this Blog.  A lot has happened to little old me since I was last here.  So much that I couldn’t even begin to tell you all the details! But i’m back now, I’m back and things are going to be better than ever!

 

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In 2011 my beloved Dad passed away.  I have written about this briefly before but for those of you who are new here he went in to hospital with a hernia and never came out again.  He had an operation to fix the hernia but due to a combination of things (his age, asthma and Emphasyma) he suddenly passed away whilst in the ICU a couple of hours after he came out of theater.  I felt like the bottom had fallen out of my world, My lovely, funny, clever Dad was gone.  But I carried on, I still had my Mum to look after and i was in the process of buying a house with my partner at the time.  I carried on as best i could and managed pretty well for about a year!

Then September 2012 happened.  Things between me and my partner didn’t work out.  I still don’t 100% know why but it hit me like a train.  Suddenly I had lost my Dad and my boyfriend, my lovely house and even my cat Lupin.  I had to move out of the house we shared and leave 10 years of our life together behind.  I cried a lot, I wished things were different but I carried on as best I could!

I found a new place to live (a house share with 3 other lovely people) and i settled in.  My wonderful freinds (RL and internet) rallied round and I was never left on my own for too long and they let me moan…and moan…….and mmmooaaaaannnn.  Despite the sadness I had fun and realised I had good people in my life.  I even met someone new…..

 

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Then in April 2013 my Mum got sick.  She never told me how bad she was and I didn’t have any reason to think things were that bad.  One day she collapsed in town and had to stay in hospital.  She had all sorts of tests but she told me they were all ok.  She came out of hospital and i tried to see her as much as I could.  She had seemed to pick up but then one day i got a call.  Mum really wasn’t ok.  Eventually she had to go back in to hospital and it was then that I found out she had cancer and she wouldn’t be getting better.  I don’t know to this day if she knew and just kept it from me or if she was in denial. It wasn’t long before she began to deteriorate.  Eventually she couldn’t hang on anymore and then she was gone too.  I cried and I cried.  There were times when I felt like I had no one, that I was all alone.  But once again my wonderful friends rallied round to help as best they could.  My Auntie and uncle travelled from St Helen’s every day to help me with funeral arrangements and sorting through 30+ years of my mum and Dads life.  It was difficult and upsetting and for a while i was very very down.  It felt like there was a weight on top of me. But I carried on as best i could.

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So it’s been almost a year since I lost my Mum and in July it will be 3 years since I lost my Dad.  I’ve sold their house and sorted all that stuff.  I’ve left my job that i’ve been in for 7 years in persuit of something different.  I’ve just come back from a lovely holiday in Barcelona with my new boyfriend and my friends and family are all still wonderful 🙂 

I’m doing pretty good and things can only get better I hope!! So stick around, i’m planning on being here for a while!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Carmen (whoopidoo) (@craftywhoopidoo)
    May 29, 2014 @ 19:41:34

    Oh what a heartfelt post Carol. Sending you big hugs. I’m so glad to see you back 🙂 I love the pictures you’ve posted here x x x

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  2. yyam
    Jun 03, 2014 @ 03:57:17

    Oh Carol. That was a lot to deal with in a few short years.:( So glad that you have someone who loves you now and a great support network. We never quite recover from the loss of someone we love so hold on to those special memories you’ve shared with your folks. You are a creative soul and I hope you find an outlet to express your grief and truly heal.

    P/s: Could I send you a card? You can email your address to me at yvonne.yam@gmail.com.

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  3. cazhugs
    Jun 07, 2014 @ 17:03:35

    thanks guys 🙂 Yvonne, I sent you an email with my address, how exciting!

    Reply

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